Waking up to the sound of the alarm, the crack of dawn I remain in bed looking at my ceiling, not wanting to move a muscle. Glancing at the clock next to my bed, I grunt as I get ready for her day. When I am ready I look towards the mirror and see myself with a sense of dissatisfaction.I remember all the stupid things I’ve done and said, feeling a sense of unworthiness. I walk towards the door while my family is immersed in each other's company with bright smiles on their faces as they eat breakfast. I walked past them and headed out without being noticed by any of them. Their indifference no longer ached me. As I stepped out I saw my neighbor and Best Friend waiting for me. A devious smile spread on his handsome face as soon as he saw me, very different to the pure expressions I’m accustomed to. A day prior we were watching a movie in his bedroom. We started watching the movie on different ends of the bed and ended up cuddling by the end of the movie.After the movie ended we stayed in silence looking into each other’s eyes. We eventually started joking around while staying mere inches from each other. We were so close we started to lean in, reaching for a kiss. I felt awkward and broke away with the excuse that it was getting late,as if I never stayed the night at his place. Back to the present: I felt a little nervous because I didn’t want to do anything that would cost me his friendship. We had planned to spend the weekend at a resort an hour away. We had a quick bite. I was happy that we ate breakfast like normal, finished our meal and headed to our destination. Our distance shortened as we walked, I couldn’t get enough of his face, his beautiful soft gaze was my weakness. I didn’t notice how many hours had passed, until my stomach growled realizing it was lunch time. We decided to eat at a really nice restaurant inside our hotel. While getting ready to head back again after our meal, we were upset to find our day going ro rides was cut short due to rain. We headed to our room, disappointed. There were two twin beds and a sofa looking out the window, so we decided to chat while looking at the rain fall. Everything after happened so fast, next thing you know we were laying in one of our beds in each other’s arms with nothing but skin between us. The next day we had a normal day and finished with all the rides we didn’t get to ride due to the rain a day prior. When I finally got home and inside my room I felt different. All the negative emotions I normally carry with me were not present. It was really hard to do but I eventually ended up falling asleep. When I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock at the crack of dawn, I stayed in bed reminiscing of the weekend I had with my best friend. When I saw that it was finally time to get up, I just went through the notions. I saw myself in the mirror, and saw myself. I look at all the places he kissed and touched and saw all the remnants of his love on my skin, and that’s the only thing I felt while looking at myself.