fuck your silver linings

they never got me anywhere

you played me like the fool i was

because you knew you had my heart

in your freckled hands

and how i lay awake

or dreaming

at night with you and

you and you and you

and your touch

on my cluttered mind

you took my chance

and threw it at someone else

shut me out

and flew away

i showed you my dark side

did it scare you?

i let you in

did you feel at home?

you killed the light

did you intend to destroy the tunnel too?

my fatal flaw is jealousy

so how does it feel

to know you’ve left my dreams?

how does it feel

to no longer be the object

of my desperation?

you had your chance

and you let it rot

didn’t reach out

and left me to pick up the pieces

fuck you for being afraid

i was scared too

you pretend like everything’s fine

i’ll let you think that

but just know this

i never stopped fighting

throughout the aftermath

and you and you and you

and your smell that i found comfort in

can wallow in your own damn mess