She comes to me throughout the day unexpectedly. However, there are moments of the day that I anticipate her shadow lurking just within my reach.

Standing there, looming over the room as waves of tension rise up in my body starting at the very pit of my stomach.

Sometimes, this uneasy feeling spreads throughout my entire nervous system, lighting every inch of my core on fire underneath my sweaty skin.

All of my senses heighten as my brain jumps into its primordial mode of combat.

The taste of metal in my mouth. Fists starting to clench. My eyes becoming so pinpoint focused that I zero in on her in a laser beam preciseness.

The feeling drains away and i slowly begin to once again breathe in a normal tempo.

I’m able to shake off the temporary uneasiness but tell myself to be prepared. Anxiety is always with me. She is a permanent part of my soul