He watched from afar. What shall we do about him?

It was there that I noticed him... staring intently at me as if I was the only thing in the world... I looked over to Monica, my best friend of some 25 years, and glanced his way. It was then that I realized he had been watching me all morning as I told her about my newest boyfriend. As he stared, all I could think about was who he was. He looked familiar... I thought for sure I had seen him before but I was for sure just going crazy. If I’m being honest, most men look the same to me nowadays. And they come and they go... but not him. No and I knew this because I had seen him before just watching me from afar... he has never come up to me, he has never talked to me, I don’t even know his name... but I know his eyes... they are like bright blue skies on a hot summer day and you fee them blazing into your soul. It terrifies me but excites me all at once. I’m not sure how to handle him but I have to know for sure.

When I look up...

he’s gone.

When I get home...

he’s there... waiting... watching.. I know he sees me... I know he’s there but part of me wants him to be. I know I sound crazy but... then the next thing I know...

he’s walking toward me.

I panic. I don’t know this guy... what if he kills me... I mean... no one would miss me... I don’t have any family or pets, my boyfriend is probably cheating on me and Monica... well... she might miss me.. but... that’s it. You see I’m a loner. I don’t have many friends and I keep my wall up and locks bolted. No one gets in... nothing comes out.

Fuck Lily stop!! It’s ok.

When I look up, he’s in front of me.

“Oh! Um, can I help you?!” I speak first after what seems like forever has gone by.

“Um... yeah. I noticed you staring at me at the coffee shop”, I blank for a minute... what,

“The coffee shop on North Central?”

DUH LILY!

“Oh yeah! That was you?”

“Um, yeah. I thought you would have known.” Silence for again like forever, “anyway, i live upstairs, and I’ve seen you come in and out. I’m surprised you’ve never noticed me before...”... “I’m Jeremy.”

“Oh nice to meet you.”

“Um yeah you too... uh I didn’t bath your name.”

“Oh it’s Lily.”

“Like the flower!”

“Yep like the flower.” Seriously, like the flower(?) , god what am I thinking.

“Alright we’ll it was nice meeting you Jeremy. I guess I’ll see you around.”

“You too... Lily.”

WHAT AM I THINKING?! This guy has been watching me for months now. How have I not noticed and since when does he live here? Has he always lived here? Did he move here?