On the surface the show grows,

it’s easy to hide what’s inside.

The tears are easy to entertain,

Incognito with the rain

It’s hard to tell,

it’s hidden well.

No map to get back,

The days are a haze.

stray from direction, there’s no exception

Claim innocence to avoid consequence.

Accountability is not a word,

But humility is well observed,

Relish is not synonymous with selfish,

Perspective is respective.

Ending the suffer would place it on another.

But remain the same and continue the game.

Not knowing where you’re going,

Feeling weight causes hate,

How you feel is also not real,

Focus only on others, it gets much tougher

Will a day come when it’s done?

Will the choice be mine? Will I know it’s time?

While all is calm, it is time to be gone.

Every soul asleep, so none can hear me weep.

None to change my mind. It’s up to me this time.

I knew I’d be too weak. Surrender is what I seek.

I let go of life, calmly reacted,

Laid myself back, it was anticlimactic.

Still I remained, yet gave up the game.

Nobody knew, so there was nothing they could do.

The flood flowed cold with inky blood

and yet the wet sky blinked with stars in deep slumber. - Always anxiety encumbered. Selfishly wondered why life always put me under. I hungered for thunder, to mean more than just a number.