“ I know what you’re thinking “ I said, without thinking twice. My nervousness was probably visible as my mind kept racing into predicting what could he possibly be thinking. I didn’t know what to say for the fear of triggering an unpredictable and undesired response.

Picking the most vague lines are my best choice, I concluded. “You’re standing with a knife,” I said, thinking carefully of every word I say, “you think you know what you are doing, but do you?” I said, and to distract him from overthinking the subject I went on “I don’t know what I am doing” I said, putting an accent on the I. “I am standing here, in front of you, and it feels different” I said, my brain is sharper than it ever was. “It is a new situation for me to be in, this has never happened to me before, and I do not know what to do now. Do you know what we should do? I would really want to eat an ice cream now. It surprises me that at times like this, I think of the simplest things, as if even the hardest moments in life are meant to be lived as an every day experience.” I tried my hardest not to dive into negative thinking, not to dive into any emotions, to stay as neutral as I could think of.