“how long have I been asleep?” i ask my parents. apparently it’s been about 30 minutes . it’s not like i’ve had a hard day, all i did was go to school. i’m not exhausted from school work, i’m in almost all on level classes. i’m not exhausted from anything else, i do nothing. so why am i so tired? the second i come home from school, i head to my bed and fall asleep. the truth is, i fall asleep to avoid my reality. the reality of my home life. but it’s not like i have a horrible home life, it’s just not exciting. i don’t like school, yet it’s my escape from home. when i’m home i find myself lost in my own thoughts.

“how long have i been asleep?” apparently it’s been a few hours. i missed dinner after school. my mom tried to wake me up but i didn’t hear. now i have to get ready for bed when i just woke up. surprisingly, i won’t be up all night trying to fall asleep. i fall asleep just fine. i’m sleeping about 15 hours a day in total.

“how long have i been asleep?” it’s the next day. i fell asleep at 4pm and woke up at 7am. i never got to shower or do my homework last night. my mom was so pissed at me. i got to school late this morning.

“how long have i been asleep?” apparently i missed school, but my mom let me sleep in. she surprisingly let me stay home for once. i woke up for a few hours to eat but then back to sleep i go.

“how long have i been asleep?” it must be close to a thousand years. i’m wasting my life away. it’s not like i want it to be this way, but it’s how i am. everyone else is out with their friends experiencing things i never will. i barely go to school anymore. i plan to fall asleep again soon, and i long for the moment i wake up and enjoy life again.