It sits in the corner

Waiting for the clocks to go back

For the clouds to infiltrate my room

My heart

My mind

They say to keep you enemies closer

But never mentioned maintaining boundaries

I’ve got a wall dedicated to the season that brings me the most pain

The first thing I see no matter time of year

Anchoring me to the darkness

They say we gain an hour

But I can swear to you I’ve gained at least 20 in 5 days

Chained to this bed by invisible strings of all my commitments I’m failing to juggle

‘Get up’

It mocks me

Knowing the heaviness within

Will pin me to this bed till at least 4pm

And it’s dark again

And i kick myself for not seeing the god damn sun again

‘Again, again, again’

I know the story yet read it anyway

I trace over the hours for the fifth day on the run

And still my heart sinks that little bit more

As the sun disappears behind the horizon

The fairy lights come on as they are enough to brighten the room

But not enough to brighten my mind

Scattered around my room

Up my walls

And across my ceiling

Surrounding myself and still not breaking the barrier of my mind

‘Cheer up’

It mocks me

Knowing there are two anchors at the corners of my mouth

That it is responsible for

As

They

Drop

Mimicking the plunge of temperature

And the plunge of my psyche

I lie there

Feeling nothing and everything

All at once

A whisper

From the corner of my room

‘Seasons greetings’