All that glitters is not gold.

I never said that I thought this would be easy,

But I never thought it would be this hard.

Loneliness is what overwhelmed me first.

Sure, your husband is there

For at least the fun moments at most.

The hard nights seem to pass in a blur,

And when I wake, I only then realize

That the tough times were faced on my own.

Nursing was supposed the be this magical thing

I’m not saying it’s not,

just saying in the end it’s all the same.

Being a mom was all I ever wanted to be.

So please don’t curse me if I voice the stress that came free

It was a package deal that I purposefully overlooked.

I hoped the fantastical dream being reached,

would outshine any darkness to be seen

I could cry all day of my woes and sorrows

Yet truth be told,

I still wouldn’t give it up

Not even for a mountain of gold.