You never asked me but,

I’ve never felt at home in this skin

And I know you’ve always found me lacking.

You never asked me but,

I’ve never felt at home in this house.

It was never a safe place to lay my head,

So I stayed up nights patrolling

All the shadows and dark places

From the guard post on my bed.

I ever asked you but,

I really needed someone to understand

All the ways in which I was different,

The anxious thoughts that clouded

My thinking - laid up all night sinking

Into the dark recesses in my head.

Instead of the constant rejection,

Ridicule and projection

That was hurled at me instead.

You never asked me but,

There were times I thought

That my entire existence

Was merely a nuisance

That you were forced to bear

Against your will and against

Every wish and dream you had for yourself