(Not the prompt, this is mostly my insomnia talking.)

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It’s 3:26 am right now

What am I doing?

Scrolling mindless through Insta

Checking my snaps, there are none

Looking at my 56 tabs on Safari

Writing

Trying to come up with ideas

Ideas that will grab attention

Excite people

Or at least one

It’s 3:30 am now

It’s time to doubt everything I’ve done today

Or I guess yesterday

Did I do anything embarrassing?

Yes

The answer is always yes

As I lay in my bed

At 3:43 am

I think, “I wish I could sleep”

But then I would be welcoming dreams

A space for my dark thoughts to come to life

So I’ll stay awake

For as long as I can

Until I can no longer keep my eyes open

And greet the monsters behind my eyelids