Today

Memories are tied to me

Like weights

Pulling me deeper

Blocks of Lead

Sinking

Darkness encroaching

As I’m pulled

Further under

Today water

Burns my lungs

Every breath - pain

Pressure

I cough but

Can’t expel the sensation

Today I want to

Stop

Fighting

Today I want

To be one

With the water

Today I wish

To be lost forever

On the ocean floor

Today

I feel like dying

Today I think

I won’t survive

But

There have been many todays

And tomorrow might bring

A raft