Forwards seems like a distant tale

Too hard to grasp

God why am I so far

Is this too much to ask

You were never the problem

Yet I beat you to the tick of my own drum

I stay far as a punishment to myself

But staying away was not what you delt

I’ve been in a wooz

Daydreamed and confused

Knowing everything yet doing nothing at all

Is this to hard to recall?

I’ve been delegating

More like forget what you said and do my own thing

Funny that word delegating

Now with a whole new meaning

Or atleast what I try to make it

Time stops in your arms

For I’d fall away from your drop

I think I jumped this time

That’s no good

Is it

No it’s not

But why does a easy climb have such a hard stumble…

So easy to mumble…

God why do I feel this way

Such dismay for my reality

It’s standing right in front of me

These words feel to close to me

I want to wash them away

Like I do dirt in a shower

But yet does it matter

I know it’s does

I know you do

But God why do I feel so far from you

So close to the touch we were

Now I feel like the friend who gave no explanation

No

Validation

One who left a good

Without a goodbye

One you see everyday and still wonder

Why?

All I could do is cry but my tears have just nearly dry

The air make my eyes blind

So dry I forget to cry from what I was feeling

Am I hitting a new ceiling?

I new height to a pitfall

Or is it really nothing at all.

I tangle with the deception

So easy to deceive

…

Me.

I don’t know maybe I just need a baby I call daily

But no I need you.

Gosh why is this so hard

Fall hard, bruise faster

Believe me you have mastered

My heart and who I am

For I was crafted by your hand.

I sit waitingly at my own demise

But I know you hate to see me cry.

I try I try I try

Why is it not working

Oh gosh

This is so irking

I tear up at the sound of my inner screams right before me

Maybe a lil sin to make it better

But it only leaves my eyes wetter…….