I dont know if being a wildfire is something to be proud of. My mother always told me i was fierce, that i had a certain kind of quality that made me different. When i was younger i thought that being different was good, who wants to be exactly like everyone else? Turns out, I do. Or at least i think i do… The thing you dont reaize when youre young is that the world is cruel. A wildfire of a woman is a challange, family, superiors, boyfriends, will all do their best to put you out because you cant be contained and although there is a beauty in that, there is also a massive danger. You can be a wildfire, but be sure to keep your path clear of other people who may get burned by your success. The world has this idea that only a set number of people can succeed, only one person can shine. Your boyfriend wants the desire and the passion when it pertains to him, but dont be too career oriented. Your real job is to bear his children, clean his house, cook his food, be the trophy wife that he can keep on a shelf until he needs something else from you. Bring the fire in the bedroom, but never in front of anyone else, dont challenge him in front of friends or family because god forbid you have an opinion of your own. Shut up and agree with him even when he is wrong because what he really wants is a mindless woman to cater to his needs. At work bring the fire but never take credit for it, you have a great idea, give it to your boss and let them decide what to do with it. If you do too well and move too quickly up that ladder what does that say about them? We live on the fear that one persons strengths are anothers shortcomings. Your family is proud of you, proud that youre making something of yourself, but dont be too different, follow the societal expectations that will bring the family honor. Dont be too authentically yourself because we are afraid of people who embrace their true identities. The world will do so much to snuff out a flame. After years and years of living like this part of you starts to extinguish the flame before it has the chance to grow and leave ypur body. Fuck individuality i want to be like everyone else. I want to have the look that the world deems acceptable, want to be conventionally attractive and behaved in a manor that appeals to the world. I want my boyfriend to love me, I want my coworkers to like me, I want my family to be proud and I have found that is easier when you keep the flame in check. Do whatever you need to do, bite your tongue so you dont say anything that might start a problem, swallow your desires and spit out the remnants. If you have learned one thing its that if you supress yourself and become what other people want you to be life gets a little easier. Yes, sometimes swallowing my fire means that the flame flicks at your throat and burns on the way down, burns a hole in the pit of your stomach, but internal wounds cant be seen. You will learn to live even when the flame is burning you from the inside out. Drink some water, stand out in the cold, do whatever you have to do to stop it from bursting out of you and destroying this life, albeit a fasade, that you have created. You have learned what they want, all you have to do is keep living that way. Be the cool girl, dont ask too many questions, dont let yourself come off as to smart or too determinded. You are full of sound nd fury, signifying nothing.