We promised to be friends forever. That’s what we always promised first and foremost. Through high school and now, through college too.

But sometimes it’s difficult to keep your promises

How do just friends keep that promise after a kiss

after many nights shared trading secrets under the covers

Most friends don’t know what other friends look like sleeping

Don’t know what side of the bed they may prefer

Most friends haven’t studied the color flecks of each other’s eyes intently

Couldn’t tell you everything that makes the other person tremble with fear

Haven’t seen each other’s bodies rack with sobs at the end of it all

with the promise of taking it all back to where it began

but how could we go back

How could we stay friends again after what has transpired

There’s too much hurt there now

Too much love

We were so much more than all of that

and friends just hurts too much right now

it all just hurts too much