I sometimes feel like it’s my fault that I am sick.

I stress a lot, I have been anxious, living in fight and flight mode

for most of my existence.

Is this what made me sick?

My lack of boundaries and self-love,

Worry and fear.

The overthinking spirals I keep finding myself into.

Sometimes I manage to get up and fight.

Maybe I fight too hard at times

What is the right amount of effort required for healing?

How could I even really know?

They tell me,

doctors and healers,

That I am too hard on myself.

I need to do less,

take it easier.

I have been sick for years.

I have been feeling upside down for so long.

How much longer can I endure?

Before I accept

that this might just be what I need?