I’m sorry I keep bringing it up

Keep making jokes about it

But how am I supposed to handle it otherwise

Saying “ haha yeah he said he wanted to sexually assault me” is easier than asking for help

Saying “ He would never” is better than admitting to myself he might have

I don’t even remember that night

It’s all blurry

I remember saying yes

Your hands in my hair, my lips on yours

I remember you lifting my shirt and then I remember pulling away

But you didn’t let me, you kept going

Eventually you stopped, you did stop

What does that mean

What’s the definition for that?

So that’s why I say it’s all just a funny scenario because I don’t know how else to handle it

Your hands drifted farther and farther

Then suddenly…it was over