my eyes slowly adjusted

to the darkness

as they struggled

to push their way open

pockets

of sweat

bubbled

above my brow as

i desperately

searched

for familiarity

it was then

I realized I was trapped

trapped by my own mind

trapped underneath

the rubble of who I used to be

trapped, never to escape

shrouded by my

loss of innocence

loss of happiness

loss of self

a part of me struggled

straining to rescue itself

wasting energy

in futile attempts

to break free

from the prison in my head