How do I begin to describe my feelings for you I do not know what is real and what is right when I think of you Am I a fool, to throw away the closet I’ve gotten to love, you Or am I wise, to avoid a snake in disguise: you During possibly the worst times in my life I met you Or perhaps the best, I can’t recall, I felt I was finally happy when I met you During my psychosis, and euphoric states I thought of you I don’t remember what I did, that drove me further away from you Except being the obvious, out of control, manic idiot that probably embarrassed you Will you ever forgive me? Will I ever forgive you? The future is uncertain, and I can’t tell if I want you Or perhaps the idea of you Whatever it is, I can’t shake the feeling I lost out on you For some reason, even though you made me hate you I still remember those moments where I could’ve loved you