I like him

I can’t not admit it

He consumes my every thought

But… he’s a year older.

& I don’t even know if he likes me back

But I feel like he does

Am I even ready for this?

Already, my grades are beginning to suck again in this class

I think people can tell he likes me

Am I ready?

He’s going to college next year

Local

Do I actually want this?

Really?

It’s difficult to talk to him

So clearly there’s something there

Do I want this.

…not really…

So I don’t ask for his number

& I slowly stop talking to him

& then I realize I like someone else

Also in the same class

& now I’m glad I didn’t ask for his number

I no longer have feelings for him.