The Truth About Love
I’m sorry.
I imagined my life without you—because I had to.
Cried when I held you— because I had to.
Fed your empty soul—because I had to.
And I’m sorry.
The world you built inside my chest
Collapsed
Before I could grasp it.
The fragility of you
Unraveled
Before I could hold it together.
The light in your palms
Dimmed
Before I could learn to nurture it.
I’m sorry
That as doors closed,
I searched for windows to jump through.
That as you untied yourself from me,
I reached for longer ropes.
That when I finally saw your indifference
I clung to you,
Like breath to drowning lungs.
And I forgive you.
I let red wine pull me under when I think of you.
When I remember how you loved dancing,
And pretending.
When I set the needle to our vinyl
And let the sound of you fill my home.
Your hands
Still underneath my skin.
Pitying myself
The way I once pitied you.
Loving you was losing you.
And I’m sorry.