The moment I died

Everyone wonders what happens when you die,

Some people die early but get buried old,

Death is when you feel dead,

Death isnt a thing to me its a emotion,

Im dead inside but im not underground yet,

Im surving and there is most definitely a difference between that and living,

If im already dead inside then why not be dead on the outside too?

I can leave my body and leave my soul behind leave this world full of pain and find a way to end the suffering,

But maybe just maybe I can learn to live and not just survive.