I happily deceive myself once more

Sweating hands shaking now a warm embrace.

Ignore, pretend, smile, believe and keep score:

They five create the dream I always chase.

My cheeks warm, blushing, despite bitter frost,

A simple joke, I imagine aimed at me.

Ignore, pretend, smile, but belief is lost.

How I make this work out, I cannot see.

But then he speaks to me - my head won’t listen,

Could my dreams rest in two minds? I dare think

A girl’s wish they could grant, who has given

Up on blissful ignorance in stories she drinks.

But while dreams live on in my longing mind,

I know life is too cruel to be so kind.