Earthquakes no longer feel so foreign to my body

The stable ground, crumbling in an instant

The aftershocks, ripping through my veins

Have become the norm, an expectation

Why would any of this be easy?

Every time the ship starts to right itself

Another wave comes crashing overboard

Submerging me once again

Suffocating me once again

When I had only learned how to breathe again

When I had only learned how to live again

Why is this happening again?

They say if it doesn’t kill it you

It makes you smarter, tougher

Stronger

Well I’m fucking strong enough

And I’ve waited long enough

To get a win or at least a draw

To see a glimpse of the life I’ve been fighting for

To remember why I started fighting at all

Will the dawn ever break?

Will the storm ever pass?

Will the mountain become a hill?

Will the present fade into the past?

Will I be here still?