[/cw dismorphia]

I try avoid looking in the mirror. The thing is, I don’t like, what I see. When I look in the mirror I can’t really see myself. It’s like I see a different person. It doesn’t feel like me. Everything is so disorted. My face is not my face. When the mouth of the person in the mirror moves, it doesn’t feel like it is me that makes it move. I see into the eyes of the person in the mirror and I can’t feel a thing. They’re deep, endless. They try to reach up to my soul but can’t find anything. When I look in the mirror it almost feels like the devil’s looking back at me. Telling me lies, untrue words, whispers in my ear and caresses my cheeks. When I look in the mirror I can’t see what everyone else sees. I try to understand what they see. Try to feel it too. But it feels almost riddiculous. I try to laugh about it but the laughing of the face in the mirror can’t seem to reach their eyes. Soulless, empty.