Healing and decaying go hand in hand

I learned this through you and your selfish desires

From the late nights you spent driving around screaming my name

As I was clueless to your new obsession

For I had thought to have ended our flame

Despite the strain it had given me I didn’t block you no I allowed your decay to creep in

Reassuring my friends you were fine even as you pushed me to ruin

How was I to know you would show up to bring terror to me

Terror of what you would do how you found me and why you sought to punish me for a love lossed

I was healing and you were decaying

Trying to claw your way back to me

As I was forgetting about us

This situation you put me in was far to extreme for a break up

But you always fell to fast and I fell to slow

Neither could go with the other

So I cut you off

stopped the texts the letters the calls

Anything and everything that could bring you back to me

For I was fine to be alone

And you had to let go of the decay of a relationship long since past

Once the silence of a blocked number rang I felt peace

For I was finally allowed to be lonely without your ghost

And you were out screaming in desperation

You always did say you hated being lonely

As you drive around town with an ache that I can no longer feel

I hope my ghost is enough for you

Even though I wasn’t I do hope that you know

We are both lonely once again

You with your hands gripping onto our rotten relationship

And me forever etched in fear

Praying to regain my sense of safety after you

It is a weird feeling knowing your stalker is just as lonely as you

That there are times in the day when we both are lonely

For we once filled each others hunger but no longer

Not after you made my life a horror show

For you are lonely cause you fell in love with the idea of me

I am lonely cause I couldn’t let you consume me

So here we both stand lonely together

I hope you stay lonely if it means no one else has to feel that terror you gave

And I hope I am lonely if it means I no longer have to face the dread you gave me

So let us stay lonely together forever stained from the phantom of the other