23rd March 2020

I’ve been told to keep a diary.

I’m not anxious, just bored.

Maybe I should buy a meditative healing stone.

24th

I’ve been looking through the amazon reviews for salt crystal lamps today.

I’ve been fired. Not in a bad way. They knew I wasn’t really enjoying the job so this works for both of us.

Salt crystal lamps have healing properties so you’ve got to spend a bit of money on them to ensure they’re genuine.

I still feel,

mortifyingly,

fired.

25th

It’s sunny outside.

I lay in a fetal position on the carpet all day watching Eastenders. The carpet was comforting. I had a great day.

26th

THE FLAT BELOW AREN’T QUARANTINING. I KNOW only two people live there and there’s fucking 4 of them in the garden right now. People are dying. Fucking disgraceful.

P.s I bought the lamp. Paid extra for amazon prime.

Friday 27th

Yesterday I wrote a strongly worded letter to the bottom flat and left it on their windscreen wiper. I hope they get the message. Total idiots.

My ethically sourced, 100% pure salt crystal lamp will arrive next Friday due to COVID delivery issues. Bit annoying.

28th

Instagram, Twitter, Facebook all I see every day is anxiety busting tricks tips and games... I’m not anxious. Just bored.

And angry.

And tired.

I haven’t done anything but lay on the couch, but I feel so tired.

I also feel smelly, stagnant, emotional and a bit fucking fed up. Just uninspired. My eyes hurt and I keep sweating.

31st

My flat mate is leaning over our balcony and playing drinking games with the criminals from bottom floor.

1st May

I ended up playing with them. Turns out all four of them do actually live there.

They think the middle floor left the note.

3rd

I took a walk today. I walked for nearly an hour.

Three teens where sitting in the grass laughing. I don’t think they were from the same house and to be honest it’s doesn’t matter, sitting is not exactly exercise.

I stared at them practically snarling with disapproval until they got up and made tracks. As I turned away I bumped into a jogger with her dog. She apologised and touched my arm!

Bought 3 different types of hand sanitiser on my way home to disinfect that woman’s stupidity! I also bought pukka tea. I couldn’t decide if I should buy a peace tea, a clarity blend (with hemp) or if I just wanted a bog standard chamomile. I ended up buying all three.

I drank too much tea, I can’t sleep and I keep weeing.

Maybe those laughing teenagers were the kind of kids with toxic family dynamics.

7th

My head hurts imagining a variety of different home life scenarios with chaos and anger. Some with worse.

My eyes feel heavy and dry. Dark coraline circles buttoned on my white, spotty skin.

My lamp arrived. I’ve already repackaged it with a return label. I hate it.