I am guarded I live a dream and love a lie you are dangerous you talk so loud and hurt so sweet you twist my words into brambles you weave sentences that smell of roses I fall apart every time you speak I cry quietly so you don’t hear I need to let go I’m drowning in your sins you love me as much as you know how you don’t know me at all you hide your face from the camera you’re sorry for your loss I’ve never seen you cry I feel like a piece of shit I love you so much My heart is screaming you love me so much but you love yourself most you are incapable of change and scared I’ll let go I’m scared to let go but you are killing me slowly goodbye, father. I still love you. I just need a break.