I am guarded

I live a dream and love a lie

you are dangerous

you talk so loud and hurt so sweet

you twist my words into brambles

you weave sentences that smell of roses

I fall apart every time you speak

I cry quietly so you don’t hear

I need to let go

I’m drowning in your sins

you love me as much as you know how

you don’t know me at all

you hide your face from the camera

you’re sorry for your loss

I’ve never seen you cry

I feel like a piece of shit

I love you so much

My heart is screaming

you love me so much

but you love yourself most

you are incapable of change

and scared I’ll let go

I’m scared to let go

but you are killing me slowly

goodbye, father.

I still love you.

I just need a break.