I float in somewhere I can not see, nor do I want to see. I float and wait for something to happen, but yet nothing ever does. If nothing has existed yet does that mean I do not exist yet either? If so then what am I? What will become?

I feel everything yet I feel nothing at the same time. I feel emotions but for what? There is no point in feeling anything there should be no reason to feel anything no reason to be sad because soon everything will exist, no reason to be happy because the worst is yet to come, no reason to be angry because it's nobody's fault. If it's nobody's fault then who gets the blame? I can still think that must mean I exist but what's the point of my existence?

As I lay there floating in a world that doesn't exist so dark and empty and depressing. It makes me wanna cry but for what? I hear nothing and see nothing maybe the sheer thought of nothing itself is just enough to make me afraid, to make me feel sad and hopeless.

No one can understand my pain because there’s no one around. My throat aches as I try to scream for help but it’s no use. This state I’m in this feeling I have it’s terrible, I just feel nothing. I can’t be happy I can’t be sad I can’t feel anything because there is no reason to feel anything at all everything is just non existent.