I just figured out I have a crush on you

I catalog things about you in my mind

I know you think it’s weird but I can’t stop

The depths of your soul I’d like to find

We don’t talk much, we just became friends

But you’re the sweetest in the world

You gave me the idea for my pen name

And in my chest butterflies unfurl

You told me to have a good day

And you walked me to the door

You held it open as I left

And after that I just thought about you more

I know what time you go to sleep

Because you told me once and I was shocked

So early, that must be how you’re always so nice

You get enough sleep and your kindness can’t be topped

I call myself intrigued

Others might call me a spy

Maybe a little obsessed

But truly I am obsessed, I can’t lie

You never answer your texts

Because you’re not glued to your phone

Like most of us often are

I’m glad you’re like that even if it makes me feel alone

I don’t really know what to do about this crush

Since I don’t want to date anyone right now

So I’ll suffer on in silence

Wishing you’d be my knight in shining armor while I’m stuck here with my crown

Anyone can wear a crown

And if it were up to me it’d be you

Because you’re just the bestest person

Everyone adores you and now I do too

How do I make a crush go away?

Tear it from my heart

Without damaging my soul

Or ripping my mind apart?

The answer is I can’t

No matter how hard I try

So I’ll keep on loving you

As a spy on the sideline.

~Edgaress Allan Poe

Part Two because it sat in my drafts long enough for there to be more to the story 😭

I found out today

That there’s another girl

Either she has a crush on you

Or maybe it’s her that makes your heart twirl

It doesn’t really matter

Because either way I know

My chances just became slim

And my spirits very low

I can’t say I didn’t expect it

Or at least something of the sort

Happiness is my sworn enemy

With its kind I cannot consort

A mutual friend just let it slip

Out of pity or out of ignorance

I suppose I’ll never know

But what I know now is she’s put you in a trance

I’ll keep on being a spy

Right on that sideline

And I’ll keep on cataloging things

About you, and that’s fine

I’ll keep on zoning out

While my eyes are trained on the back

Of your beautiful head

Of my thoughts I won’t keep track

I’ll still gaze at you

With love in my eyes

And melt when you do something sweet

For it’s this other girl I despise

Or maybe I should thank her

For making it so I don’t have to decide

What to do with the crush

Keep it inside or outside

I’ll keep it on the inside

No one will ever know

I’ll never breathe a word of it

Not to my raven nor my crow

I haven’t cried about it though

At least not yet

I truly hope I don’t

And I hope all your needs are met

In this girl I’m just now hearing of

I don’t even know her name

I hope she loves you

As much as I do, for my heart you somehow did tame

I love you darling,

As the moon loves the sun

Hiding in the shadows

Where I’ll never be your number one.

-E.A.P