I just figured out I have a crush on you I catalog things about you in my mind I know you think it’s weird but I can’t stop The depths of your soul I’d like to find We don’t talk much, we just became friends But you’re the sweetest in the world You gave me the idea for my pen name And in my chest butterflies unfurl You told me to have a good day And you walked me to the door You held it open as I left And after that I just thought about you more I know what time you go to sleep Because you told me once and I was shocked So early, that must be how you’re always so nice You get enough sleep and your kindness can’t be topped I call myself intrigued Others might call me a spy Maybe a little obsessed But truly I am obsessed, I can’t lie You never answer your texts Because you’re not glued to your phone Like most of us often are I’m glad you’re like that even if it makes me feel alone I don’t really know what to do about this crush Since I don’t want to date anyone right now So I’ll suffer on in silence Wishing you’d be my knight in shining armor while I’m stuck here with my crown Anyone can wear a crown And if it were up to me it’d be you Because you’re just the bestest person Everyone adores you and now I do too How do I make a crush go away? Tear it from my heart Without damaging my soul Or ripping my mind apart? The answer is I can’t No matter how hard I try So I’ll keep on loving you As a spy on the sideline. ~Edgaress Allan Poe Part Two because it sat in my drafts long enough for there to be more to the story 😭 I found out today That there’s another girl Either she has a crush on you Or maybe it’s her that makes your heart twirl It doesn’t really matter Because either way I know My chances just became slim And my spirits very low I can’t say I didn’t expect it Or at least something of the sort Happiness is my sworn enemy With its kind I cannot consort A mutual friend just let it slip Out of pity or out of ignorance I suppose I’ll never know But what I know now is she’s put you in a trance I’ll keep on being a spy Right on that sideline And I’ll keep on cataloging things About you, and that’s fine I’ll keep on zoning out While my eyes are trained on the back Of your beautiful head Of my thoughts I won’t keep track I’ll still gaze at you With love in my eyes And melt when you do something sweet For it’s this other girl I despise Or maybe I should thank her For making it so I don’t have to decide What to do with the crush Keep it inside or outside I’ll keep it on the inside No one will ever know I’ll never breathe a word of it Not to my raven nor my crow I haven’t cried about it though At least not yet I truly hope I don’t And I hope all your needs are met In this girl I’m just now hearing of I don’t even know her name I hope she loves you As much as I do, for my heart you somehow did tame I love you darling, As the moon loves the sun Hiding in the shadows Where I’ll never be your number one. -E.A.P