Life could be fantastic, terrifying, and just plain strange at the same time. About sixty-five percent of the time, you would not know what to do with it. A hundred percent of the time, there was something about it that you would regret.

It all happened one day when you are whittling away castles, forests, and places far away that no one could ever imagined with your trusted pen and ripped out stationery from your work notebook. Then, came a whirlpool of light and glitter and cloud of confusion before the panic had settled and you are screaming away as you continue to fall down the centre. And the next thing you know was that you are face to face with a creation that you based yourself on. Only that Cordelia was much more prettier, more smarter, and so secure with herself that you question why did you even make her in the first instance.

It only had gotten worse when you looked onto her side and saw the love interest - faces of men that you had loved but never had the courage to approach all mixed into one perfection. You had looked away immediately but you could not help but to wonder which of the boy he would turn into. Would he be the childhood crush who was always by your side? The high school rival who always pushed you into doing your best? Or that college friend who you nearly said “I love you” to? Now that you thought about it, you suddenly did not want to know.

‘Let’s take you back,’ were the very first words that Cordelia gave you, amongst the very few words that she ever uttered to you through the castles, forests, and places no one had ever imagined. But there were little need in the way of words because you knew that you are going to love Cordelia - the fantasy that you gave yourself. And that was all right, you had suddenly imagined when you remembered the warmth of her hands enclosing yours. There was no shame in fantasies.