There he was in the campus circle. ** The big water fall fountain in the middle of the Campus circle with brown benches surrounding **Our groups favorite spot. Our group consisted of me, Leo, Hailey , Ben, Gigi, Beth, David, and Zeke. He was sitting with Ben and Hailey . The two love birds of our friend group. When you see Ben just know Hailey is not too far behind. Ben was tall and frale with big bushy brown hair. Hailey had long golden blonde hair. I can see her twirling it from here. As I slowly started to approach them I made out Leo. He’s wearing my favorite shirt that he owns. It’s a black Pink Floyd T-shirt. It has a hole in the shoulder area but that’s what makes me love it on him even more. Leo is not afraid of what anyone thinks. He wears it proud. I made the hole bigger on that shirt the last time I wore it. I almost stuck my hand through it half drunk. I don’t even think he notices. The light wash jeans pair well with it. You could see his confidence from a mile away. It’s so attractive on him. He has one leg crossed over his other knee turned slightly left laughing at something Ben must have said. Ben was also the comedian of the group. Seeing him laughing and smiling wearing that perfect outfit makes this even harder to do. Maybe I will just do this another day. But then again, I have been holding this in for 3 years;**Since freshman year of college. **A year ago we started getting closer. He started staying nights with me in my dorm after late nights with our friends and visa versa. I would sleep at his dorm. I would wear his t-shirts to sleep. He would walk me to my 3rd class everyday. We take care of each other. I just need him to know that being friends isn’t enough. “ Hiiiii guys”. I say as I approached them. “ Heyyyy Liv where ya been?” Leo says.” “Oh no where. Just grabbed a muffin from the cafeteria. Was looking for you guys”. Ben blurts “ I’m starving and Hails is on this new water fasting diet so I have to starve. I could eat a cow”. Hailey chimes in “ Oh whatever babe you know you could eat whatever you please. Let’s go to the cafe before you get more dramatic”. As they both get up and start walking toward the campus side entrance I can see them bickering back and forth. I sit down next to Leo. I got slapped in the face with his scent. He’s wearing his favorite expensive cologne, Sauvage. He wears it everyday and I somehow never get tired of it. I want to just stick my face in his neck and just inhale. I somehow know all of my problems would go away. I got the courage to rip the bandaid off. This is the perfect time.

“So Leo, there’s something I been meaning to tell you. I am not sure how you are going to feel about this but I need to get it off my chest. I have feelings for you. I have since the moment we became friends. I hid it from you because I was scared. Scared to ruin our friendship and our friend group. You’ve told me in the past that you would never date a friend because it will just make the friend group awkward if you guys were to break up. But, I’m willing to try at this if you are. We just get each other. I’ve never met anyone like you. If you do not feel the same way, we can pretend this never happened”.

I can feel myself turning red. My palms are super clammy and I just want to run. Not because of what I just said. But because of his facial expression. It was sad.

“ Leo? Please say something”’

“ Olivia. I’m so sorry. Me and Beth are together. We have been keeping it on the low for a few weeks now. But, we are ready to make it official. I apologize. I had no clue that you felt this way”.

HOW DARE HE?! I must have looked like a bright tomato at this point. Beth was one of our good friends in the group. She was obnoxiously beautiful. She had two deep dimples on her cheeks you could see them from Mars. Long thick black curly hair that smelled like coconut every day. Everyone wanted to be her. He told me he would never date a friend in the group and he chose her? After all the nights we’ve spent staying up late talking until the sun came up, laughing trying not to wake my roommate Gigi. It must mean nothing to him. I must mean nothing to him. We spent last weekend in my dorm until 2 a.m just laying down watching the Fast and Furious movie marathon. We almost kissed. He could’ve chosen me. But he didn’t.

It will never be me.