I take a drink

Of sweet nectar

And then I realize it’s poison

What if I crave something poisonous?

I hold the metal blade

It’s cool and soothing

And then I realize it’s a knife

What if I crave something sharp?

I plunge into the water

It swirls around me and I feel at peace

And then I realize I can’t swim

What if I crave something that can swallow me?

What if I crave something that can kill?

Into the lion’s mouth

But I am not afraid

Everyone tells me,

“You only live once.”

But my head tells me otherwise:

“You die a million times.”