Today the moon goddess was gifting non shifters new wolves. And if we are able to handle the day we remain one. The transformation was happening at dawn and I watched every second tick by with anticipation.

“You know I love you regardless of whoever you are right?” Adrian, my mate whispered in my ears. We have gone over this conversation before and I have assured him that I am doing this for myself. But he keeps bringing it back. I turned from the clock and looked at him, his grey eyes shimmering with a supernatural glint and I watched in admiration.

Suddenly a sharp stabbing ache shot through my back and I knew the minutes have stroke midnight. A unison of piercing scream trembled the pack house. All the humans were shifting. My body jerked in uncontrollably ways. A scotching pang of headache numbed my body and tears blurred my vision. At that point I knew two things, my skull was morphing to a wolf’s and I wanted to drift into unconsciousness. But I knew I couldn’t give up this is the main test.

While I was fighting my eyes to open I could hear Adrian begging me to stay stronger. I was so shocked I thought he would tell me to give up and end this suffering. As his mate, he feels my pain both physical and emotional so I knew I wasn’t the only one going through this hell.

Suddenly, I land on the wooden floor on four. My ribs kept pitching my heart to calm down. I ignore the headache and the wobbling paws and walked to the mirror to look at myself. I realised I didn’t need the lights on. I could see meticulously and decipher the smell of every item in the clustered room. The honeycomb and blackberry sent of my mate. The lingering sent of vanilla and sandalwood of our shampoo. His old socks that stench like moulds and raw eggs somewhere... is it behinds the sofa? That’s where the sent was travelling from. I loved what I saw in the mirror, I was at least 4 foot with bronze fur and yellow eyes. My favourites colour. The moonlight pouring out of the window made my fur shimmer a slight. I howled at the moon in content and Adrian giggled from behind me.

Suddenly, I crumbled on the floor with an astonishing pain. They told me the acceptance part was the hardest. My heart winced and tighten. It felt like a million people were forcing their way inside my heart. The pack has accepted me. The moment the thought of giving up emerged the sensation stopped and I felt the chilly wooden floor again my cold pecan skin. Adrian rushed to hug me. Tears prickled my eyes and I could smell everything, see his pale skin with my night vision. “Babes... I did it”. I said with a groggy voice. “I love you”. He said and kissed my temple.