Throw it in the fire and watch it burn The memories we had They make me sad Every time you leave saying goodbye is easier And every time you leave these tears dry I don't know who I'm looking at but I know the person I'm looking at isn't you I get a glimpse of you every time I get a whiff of that cigarette smell I hate the way I remember you The pain you caused was too much to bear but I was a kid who couldn't understand it You say you're coming but then text a minute later and say you're not why am I still staring at the window waiting? I guess drugs are more important and all you have to say is no I'm done running from you spent my whole life in your shadows scared of who I'd be if I were happy I love you but I can't allow you to drown the both of us I miss you I do but I can't allow myself to live in the past I need to move on I have Real friends that are counting on me I love you sister but I'm done with your lies so maybe we could pretend you never hated the family? I'll never let you get too close for if I do ill be broke beyond healing