I find myself crying at night

About all of the things that I didn’t do right

I think about how my life is okay

But that because of my past it won’t be one day

When I was young I made stupid decisions

Ones that have me caught reminiscing

I cry and I cry and I cry to the world

To just let me have a new beginning

I’ve always been happy with my life to this day

I got lots of friends and beautiful sun rays

But what clenches me up inside

Makes me want to restart or die

I can’t explain who what or why

But I’m just so fucking afraid that each night I cry

I cry to my mistakes

For existing in the first place

I cry to my doings

For putting my life in ruins

I cry to the world for the fear of everything I’ve ever lived going to shit and there’s nothing I or anyone can do other than all of it just ending.

I just want a do over

A new beginning