I did not want to be there

It wasn’t because I was scared

It wasn’t because they were unfair

I went anyway just for your sake

I was not going to be a flake

I told myself, pretend its for the steak

Maybe they didn’t like me

Or I haven’t accepted them with glee

I feel like I’m alone at sea

They wouldn’t point or shout

They would just stare and pout

They never said it to my face

They simply whispered that I was a disgrace

Everyone united on the other side

Glancing around then gone — my pride

Powering through with a fake smile, I really tried

at the end of the day, all I wanted was to cry and hide