I get up and go to the garage hop on my bike and just start paddling. I didn’t feel anything, nothing, it seemed like the world had came to a stop. Then all of sudden it got real bright so bright I was blinded. The world hit play again and I laid there. Was it my time right here right now. All I wanted was people to know the real me was that so hard to ask not even my own parents could look at me the same. I might as well had been on this cold wet ground paralyzed not feeling nothing because that’s what I felt when I did not hear those words “we still love you son”. Who knew just two words, “IM GAY” could begin to question the love of your son . I just wanted to be free. Free to be myself. Loved no matter what I was or who I was.