šŸ’« Hero šŸ’«

Thereā€™s a pencil, half hanging off the edge of the counter. Itā€™s meā€”teetering on the fine line between barely sane and on the brink of giving up. Perfectly sharpened on one side, and depressingly dull on the other. Itā€™s meā€”putting on a brave face so he wonā€™t ever know the fear that lies beneath.


Thereā€™s a noise at the door, a banging sound. Itā€™s not Nathanā€”heā€™s not home yet. Heā€™s always late, doing sluts at trashy bars. I donā€™t care so much about his cheating as I do the way he treats me. Like Iā€™m just something for him to play with when he feels like it. When Iā€™m not all his for sex, Iā€™m making him food, or buying him alcohol or cigarettes. Itā€™s time I fight back.


Nonetheless, the noise scares me, and my brain (on the topic of fighting) demands I grab the pencil and wield it as one would a sword. So thatā€™s what I doā€”I pick up the pencil and hold it in front of me bravely, like I know what Iā€™m doing. My shaky hand says otherwise.


But when I hear the door unlock with the twist of a key, and a few murmured curse words, I know that itā€™s Nathan. I just donā€™t know why heā€™s home so early. On a normal Thursday night at 9:45, heā€™s flirting with a provocative 23-year-old for whom he bought more drinks than you could count on one hand.


He spots me, his wide-eyed, clutching a half-sharpened pencil like itā€™s a lifeline, prisoner. He slams the door and turns to make sure no one is watching before he turns to me, surprised and enraged.


ā€œDelilah,ā€ he says slowly, ā€œwhat in hell do you think youā€™re doing?ā€


I bite my shaking lip nervously, knowing that nothing will excuse this. Brave face, brave face, brave face. ā€œI-Iā€™m sorryā€¦ I didnā€™t think youā€™d be home this early, and I figured itā€¦ it might be a-a kidnapper, or somethingā€¦ Iā€™m sorry.ā€


He narrows his eyes, still staring at the pencil in my hand. ā€œThen why are you still brandishing that towards me like youā€™re some kind of goddamn hero?ā€


Thatā€™s a good question. But I will never, ever tell him the answer. Because heā€™s rightā€”Iā€™m done being the victim. Itā€™s my time to be the hero. ā€œI donā€™t know, Nathanā€¦ā€ A pause. A deceitful pause. ā€œIā€™m sorry.ā€


ā€œWhatā€¦ what are you doing, Lilah?ā€ He roars, every word a rise in volume.


I back away slowly, still holding the pencil in front of me. I grab my phone and wallet off the counter with one hand and open the back door with my foot. ā€œI know this is a new concept to you, you shitbag excuse for a human, but Iā€™m being the hero.ā€

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