monster
I’ve created a monster
by laying bare my cards
and letting you go
I fed it the shards
of my rain-soaked bones
and watched it fatten
in a season where leaves have fallen
The pain has morphed into something even more difficult to describe
a lingering tremor
like Big Bang’s leftover noise
i took a shower in the dark just now
because electricity was out
i lit a candle to place in my wash basin
you said “how romantic”
a typical thing you’d say about a situation
that obviously demanded a different response
you always reacted differently
to my expectations
and it often made me think
maybe we indeed don’t belong
None of that really matters now
because i’ve created a monster that howls
a monster who weeps
and mewls at the undying afterglow of a bonfire
or a candle as it drips scorching tears
This metaphor makes even more sense
when “Afterglow” is your favourite song
i’ve created a monster who rages against an impossibility, someone who knows what’s coming about
a monster who dies
when the lights go out