For lent

I’m giving up everything.

Letting my go of everything that hurts me,

Haunts me, cuts me, kills me.

Letting go of the all nighters,

The last minute homeworks

Submitting moments before class.

I’m giving up chocolate,

Cliched as it is, maybe I’ll do better

If I don’t feel sick after every cup of coco.

I’m giving up my fears and insecurities,

Giving them to God.

I’m giving up all my negative thoughts,

The comment my brain makes

About people I don’t really trust,

I’ll give them another chance.

But I feel like giving up.

Like every week starts anew and affect,

I every time I fall knot the same trap.

Still forget to pray, to do homework,

Revising and editing final drafts an hour before class.

I’m trying to give up the bad,

But sometimes I just want to give up.