If I follow my heart like the storybooks’ show

If I endulge in a love that makes my soul glow

But is not an attraction I thought I would know

Will it fade to fast, melting quickly like snow?

What I feel is lighting my life up like magic

But if temporary then the fall will be tragic

Body pulled to yours from a force that’s magnetic

But is it just lust for desired aesthetic?

If I listen to the nagging buried in my head

That keeps me awake at night, stressing in bed

That tells me you’re simply too good to be real

Then maybe in the long run much better I’ll feel

Because science is one way to keeping protected

Away from the risks of getting romantically invested

You make me feel things….but that comes with a danger

Maybe It would be better to just marry a stranger

I could jump in and with a running start

But that would mean putting at risk my own heart

A moment’s desire could end brutal and fatal

Sometimes I wish I was more mentally stable

You are my now

But my future is dim

Will you be there or are you a mere whim?

I know you want more and I do want forever

My anxiety lessens when we are together

It’s when I am lonely that the worries come out

Scream into the darkness when shadowed with doubt

Overwhelming my mind and harming what we’ve got

You say live in the present but I simply cannot

Mark the choice for me

Kiss me in the black

If I say no pin me down on my back

If I like it we’re good

If I hate it it’s bye

But I guess that I can never know until I try