If I follow my heart like the storybooks’ show If I endulge in a love that makes my soul glow But is not an attraction I thought I would know Will it fade to fast, melting quickly like snow? What I feel is lighting my life up like magic But if temporary then the fall will be tragic Body pulled to yours from a force that’s magnetic But is it just lust for desired aesthetic? If I listen to the nagging buried in my head That keeps me awake at night, stressing in bed That tells me you’re simply too good to be real Then maybe in the long run much better I’ll feel Because science is one way to keeping protected Away from the risks of getting romantically invested You make me feel things….but that comes with a danger Maybe It would be better to just marry a stranger I could jump in and with a running start But that would mean putting at risk my own heart A moment’s desire could end brutal and fatal Sometimes I wish I was more mentally stable You are my now But my future is dim Will you be there or are you a mere whim? I know you want more and I do want forever My anxiety lessens when we are together It’s when I am lonely that the worries come out Scream into the darkness when shadowed with doubt Overwhelming my mind and harming what we’ve got You say live in the present but I simply cannot Mark the choice for me Kiss me in the black If I say no pin me down on my back If I like it we’re good If I hate it it’s bye But I guess that I can never know until I try