I can demonstrate the feeling of pain easily. It’s what I have felt my whole life. The most heart-crushing, most bone-breaking hurt ever felt. Pain often would incapacitate my thoughts, clog my brain. No matter where I would turn, no one could help, no one could relieve me. Rather than trying to find help and get rejected dozens of times, I find it easier to solidify myself, tearing myself away from anyone and anything i’ve ever loved. Being alone in a battle can destroy your dignity, it can burn your body like a raging flame. I guess it’s a good thing I like playing with fire.