There is no point to anything if your not by my side

I’m not asking for a diamond ring

Just a hug when I’m not feeling alright

I need you to get me through

The day

The week

The year

I’ve loved you since you sang your song

It still replays in both through my ears

There is no point to anything if I can’t talk to you

You make enjoy life

I love you more than the loneliness

Which creeps in every night

I want to tell you but don’t know how

Why can all these

Words

Feelings

And thoughts

Never be said aloud

I need to tell you or get some help I’m not right in my mind

I need to

Talk

Act

And be

Better than I am

Maybe then you’ll finally see

How much you mean to me

There is no point to anything if your not in my

Dreams

Hallucinations

And head

I need you now more than ever

Help

I’m not right in the head

I want to feel your hand in mine

I need a victory

I’m losing

Sleep

Grades

And friends

Since my mind has been filled with the antagonizing thought of what you and I could be

Please

I need an answer not no but I’m scared of yes

What would we become if we agreed to be more than friends

I can’t stand the thought of losing you

I think I’d rather cry

More than I did at the dentist when I was no more than nine

Yes

Id rather cry to the president Of the United States

Or to the secretary

In dishes

On plates

Id rather read more books and get more crazy ideas

Of what you and I could be

If I was right in my mind

I would rather read the crazy things I fantasize about

When the knight saves the maiden in a beautiful gown

No one knows that she went through hell to get her pretty face

Or that she tried to starve herself to have as her mother said “a more flattering shape”

Abused by her own mother

She put herself through hell

Locked herself inside a tower with all the food she could find

She tried to start feeling better

Be better in her mind

She waited for her prince to come

But he never came

If she had stayed on the ground

Would there have been a parade

A wedding?

A child?

A loving family?

Would she continue to starve herself or other forms of harm?

Or would it all get better

When she fell into the princes arms?

Why did she do these things to begin with

No one knows

Except

The beautiful maiden

Disguised as someone she did not anymore know

All she needed was the love that could have been provided

If her family didn’t love her brother more than I did

I thought I needed him but now I truly see

That she is the one who needed the help

Not him or me

Maybe I did

That much I know is true

But all you’ll ever need is someone to love and someone who loves you

Without that you need help

From someone who truly cares

All you need is love and guidance

I wish I had been right in the mind

At least,

Enough to care.