“Take me to church” she begged. I saw fear in her eyes. In a restroom with a warm orange light chained to the sink, i kept her like a dog. Every drop of blood around her had met with one another like a pool and every drop was a sin of her’s.

“I CAN REPENT…I CAN REPENT” like a broken record. It was annoying to listen to. The chains were finally weighing her down. She was about to witness what she always denied.

“God would not want this”, i laughed at that. “Look at you, in a pool of blood, knowing you are about lose your life, yet you deny” i said to her with a smirk. She kept crying for some reason. I was going to free her, send her soul to where it came from, I WAS DOING HER A FAVOR.

She had it coming. IT WAS HER FAULT. The wounds i had given her on her arm were healing, Her shaved head was growing hair again,…I HAD TO! WE HAD TO LET GO, WE HAD TO BREAK THE CURSE, YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, SHE HAD TO GO, SHE DESERVED IT!

So i did. Her “I CAN REPENT….PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE” Was making my ears ring. I could not feel…anything? The surroundings went cold…It felt as if i can see myself in third person. Out of my body. Like ecstatic.

I got closer with the sledgehammer, “PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE”

i could not hear anything over the ringing ears.

“PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE”

i keep moving, losing my vision, it all seemed hazy.

“I CANT REPENT, FORGIVE ME FORGIVE ME FORGIVE ME”, She kept crying.

enraged, annoyed i told her to stop, “SHUT THE FUCK UP” i screamed.

she did not listen - “PLEASE I REPENT PLEASE FORGIVE ME PLEASE”

i lift the hammer

“I WILL REPENT PLEASE” she says. I felt a tear rolling down my face, and It came back to me

“NO AMOUNT OF REPENTANCE IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR HOW YOU RAISED ME MA” i whisper, sadly.

Through her redundant “PLEASE” and “FORGIVE ME” I swung the hammer. It all went silent. I lost my vision the moment her blood hit my face.

In that moment, i felt my mother’s love for the first time. We laid unconscious, no worries in our heads, no head left for her to have. That moment was my heaven. I sent her to church.