it wasn’t supposed to happen like this

there wasn’t supposed to be sparks,

we weren’t supposed to kiss—

because she had a girlfriend, i had a partner

but the urge to give in got stronger and stronger

before i even knew it she was in my head

my hands were in her hair

and she was in my bed

tangled in the sheets

knowing it was wrong

but god, i hadn’t felt like that for so, so long

she stumbled out of bed the next morning

looking like a woman half-crazed

and i knew how she felt

my stomach was roiling—

i felt sick, insane

hungry for power

thirsting for her

desperate for love

i’d never get from another

she was so different

and maybe that’s why

it happened like it did

why there were sparks,

why we kissed—