He smiles at me like a loving bird

And picks me up like I could break

He uses his lips to kiss my check

And his words to soothe my aches

He tells me his love for me, with only a look

“This much?” I flutter my lashes

“Even more” he returns

in my mind

But then why—

When she walks by

He says he could die

If he’s not by her side

If he’s not at her door,

in her head,

in her mind and her heart.

I thought you loved me,

you said it with your eyes!

Your pupils told me

They widened in size.

My heart told me

That if I don’t have you I’ll—

Try

And find someone else but

elsewhere is gone

Here is where I wait

All day and night long

Until I can’t think straight

Until I run out of time

I will wait until you see we belong

But what if that doesn’t come?

What if you never see?

How—and everyone agrees- you are

PERFECT

For me

In this chess game,

I move first

And though black always wins,

I won’t stop till checkmate.

I am the girl in white

But I will let you bleed on me

I know you say your over but

I will put up a fight

Or I’ll let you be

I’ll try and stay away

I will try

But my mind is frail

And in all else

My heart will fail

I will suck in breaths

I cannot stand

My lips are dry

And now’s the time

To leave this place

And your love behind

To leave the what ifs

And spare the good byes.

For the only goodbye

Would from your lips meeting mine

And your heart expanding

And I feel like I could fly

So maybe there was a reason I didn’t get goodbye

Maybe because you never loved me

And maybe I’m not fine