if my bedroom could talk

I think my bed is my best friend

my lover

my sanctuary and cell


_why can’t I ever get up_


I think my sheets hold secrets

none that will ever be shared

none that will whisper beyond these walls


_I need to get up_


I think time runs backwards here

days spent feeling better

nights spent knowing it’s worse


_I’m going to die here _


my mother says I need fresh air

a fresh start

a new day


it’s not to be understood

the sinking and the spiraling

the pillow filled with stifled screams


_maybe if I open the curtains_

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The lights are all too bright

the stale air is more comfortable

missed calls are a reminder that time is passing


_and I’m still here_

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I know I need to get up

but at least I’m still here

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