sometimes it hurts to think

the way I saw you before

you left

for good

as time passed without you

I grew into myself and out of your shoes

finally putting you to test

and you failed

I always wanted to believe

you’d always rescue me

you let me believe

but now I’m drowning

you love to pretend

make believe me a princess

a marionette on silver strings

so you could be king

I loved you

I admired you

I still love you

though you misunderstand what love means

if you listened to me

you wouldn’t recognize me

you haven’t known me for years

I’ve played your game for so long

who can say

if the person I admired ever existed

or if that too was just show

I don’t want to leave you

you love me as best you can

I think

I hope

I miss you

but you don’t get to fool me anymore

you will always be family

but you have abandoned me as father