9/1/13 Hello! I'm Caroline. Wait that's weird... this is a book I don't need to introduce myself LOL. Or maybe I do?? IDK what I'm doing... just thought it might be a good idea to start a diary. I think interesting people keep diaries and I'm interesting so it seems like something I should do. Anyways, today was my first day of freshman year of high school. It was really scary but also I think good? Thank god I made varsity TBH because it made people know who I am in a good way, and I have some upperclassmen on the team in some of my classes so I can talk to them and it must look cool that I'm talking to upperclassmen. My classes don't seem like they're going to be that hard either. Oh! There's a guy named Zac in my algebra 2 class that's super cute. He has flowy hair and really big blue eyes. Plus he's a junior (which means he's pretty stupid but idc he's CUTE). He's friends with Nick and my friend Morgan is hooking up with Nick so maybe we'll end up at the same place after the game on Friday :) I'll let you know how it goes! 11/4/15 Well obviously the whole starting a diary thing didn't exactly pan out. I'm just really upset and I can't calm down so I just wanted to try to write but I don't honestly believe this actually helps anything. It's just like, high school is supposed to be this amazing time right? Everyone says this it's in all the movies and all the shows and adults say to live it up cause we'll miss it. The problem is I'm certain they're right, and I'm not making the most of my time. I should be having fun, I shouldn't care this much about school, I shouldn't care this much about a guy that I know isn't gonna be around, I should have made different friends, I should have done different extracurriculars, idek all I know is I'm doing it wrong. I'm halfway through highschool and soon I'm gonna be an actual adult with actual responsibilities. I don't want to. 6/12/17 I just graduated high school. I can't stop crying. The last four years were amazing. I don't want to go to college. I want everything to stay the same. 10/25/18 So I completely and totally fucked everything up, typical!!!!! I am the stupidest fucking person in the world!!!!! I came to college and met a boy immediately and based my entire life on him, and I fucked it up and now he's gone and all my friends are gone with him. They weren't even good friends anyway. And my hs friends don't talk to me the same way anymore. Everything is different and it completely fucking sucks, I wish I could've stayed in high school forever